What’s True for Me This Week

The weekly column here that's a little chatty and personal so you can get to know me and my creative weird sometimes silly sometimes mundane little brain ...

That’s me sitting on a cozy couch in a classroom, getting ready to start the school day. When I dropped out of high school with a “damn the man” attitude, I certainly never expected to love going back in my thirties and now again in my forties.

I always invite you to come share what’s true for you in my chat where I make these little updates daily-ish. Sometimes just taking a moment to sit and say “what’s true for me” really makes a lot of things clearer. And I hope what people find there is a safe space for sharing their personal truths.

Coming This Week …

Keep an eye out for some announcements this week including the option to receive only a monthly digest of all Create Me Free posts in case you’re someone who enjoys the posts but wants less “noise” in your inbox. I’m really looking at ways that I can personalize your options so that you can have the experience you want which is really important for all of us.

Kya summing up lots of my favorite moments from the week :)

What’s Been True For Me This Week …

January 22, 2024

What is true for me today is that I woke up with a case of the "idontwannas". I don't want to go to class today (or go anywhere for that matter.) I don't want to clean my house (although I'd love for it to magically be clean). I don't want to work on dog training or go stand in the stupid pharmacy line or start any of the work I've got on my to do list. I don't wanna!!!! I want to stay in bed and maybe read a book and maybe not and for my dogs to sleep the entire day without getting up or needing anything from me beyond snuggles. And I could (well, I can't make the dogs need nothing, but I could mostly stay in bed) but there are consequences and I also don't wanna with the consequences. So I'll not do something things and yes do other things and I suppose that's all okay.

I love Thai iced coffee / tea … I don’t drink it often because it’s got so much sugar but it’s really one of my favorite treats.

January 23, 2024

What's true for me today is that yesterday I had the first day of the last of my new classes so I have a good feel for the semester ahead. As you know, I absolutely loved two of the first three professors and decided to drop the third class. This fourth class was helpful to me because I get a good feel for the professor on a human level but am unsure about how I feel about the class so far and the teaching style. We'll see and it doesn't really matter - the point is that there was a distinctly different feeling in my body between "I'm not sure I like this class" and "I want to drop this class". And it reminded me of how far I have come in knowing what I want and need because there was a time, for a long time, when I had so many ruminating thoughts and could never calm down and intuitively know myself and I would agonize forever over decisions and often just curl up into a fitfully sleeping ball. And now, I trust myself and understand myself and make decisions from that place. Not always easily but this was an example of relative ease and that feels really good.

My partner’s family lives nearby and he has longtime family friends and this whole amazing network. I have a great network of my own friends but they’re all mostly my age or younger so it’s been a real treasure to get to come into his family with the parents and older generations. We had Italian dinner together this week.

January 24, 2024

What's true for me today is ... I almost don't want to write anything true today because it feels like I'm in the midst of cranky things that I know aren't going to really be a problem later so complaining about them seems pointless but then that's what's really on my mind so then what? In brief, there are a series of frustrations that emerged from school - some with that aforementioned class I want to drop and the "stuff" around that, some with watching experiences others are having, some with just the general annoyances of the realities of higher education ... Nothing I really want to dig into, just hitting that part of the academic journey where these things come up. Which is okay. I can sit with that and know it will pass. But it's not fun to sit with those times. Today is my day off so my plan is to read some inspiring things here and start my day slowly, get some cleaning done because a cleaner space would help my mood some, do some training with the dogs, get some tasks off the list, listen to some music that uplifts, maybe collage and/or read. We'll see.

Went to my first NBA game this week. Sports isn’t much my thing but both my siblings played basketball and that’s the one sport I can really get into. Got a last minute invite to Hello Kitty night and decided to go. Was fun!

January 28, 2024

What's true for me today - has it really been four days since I shared that?! I went and saw a rental house this week that feels like such the perfect next place and put together my application but I'm not sure if financially I'm going to qualify so we're now at the wait and see stage. I like to think that if it's the right place it will work out. But also I feel anxious because I so want it to happen. I don't need to move so if it doesn't work out it's okay. My partner and I want to move in together and get the dogs a yard and I've been so ready for this for a while as we look for the perfect place. But I do like where I'm at so there's not really a problem if it doesn't work out. Anyway, it's just all nervous weird money application energy with excitement about potential change.

What’s true for you today?!